Gambling with Life

Screw others, always be ready to place the bet !

Reminiscing a life

Posted by Rojit on January 18, 2012

He flushed out his impatient breath and this time he didn’t say 0 (zero) as he made the countdown from 10 for the seventh time. Something, he does all the time when he is waiting for some good things to happen! He gazed through the glass, searching for the person, rather the only hope, he believes he is living his not so grand life for. He was asked yet again to remain seated, but nowhere in his mind he had his sanity of a sound mind. He knew not what to say and neither did he have any clue how Ricky was gonna react.

The shame being on this side of the glass was one part of him hindering him from this meeting arranged though his repetitive request. And on the other side, his love for his son couldn’t stop him from starring through the glasses wondering when the free world would be felt again! 

And just like that, the image appeared and the first thing he noticed was his eyes and there wouldn’t be a single person to deny the fact that the kid’s mom was still alive, in his eyes! He was elated and yet a small wind of guilt conscience simply couldn’t but touch his face. 

The lawyer whispered something in his son’s ear and then he looked at his dad and called ‘Dad’ for the first time in his life. It took him a moment to realise what he had just heard wasn’t one of the many dreams he had built on! His whole life’s baggage full of wrong deeds seemed to collapse and with the heaviest drop of tear, a thing he thought never existed, that ran down and he became a completely new guy! He was speechless and for the next few moments, all he could harness to do was – simply look at his 6 year old son without a morsel of word spoken! The guard over the counter signalled him that time would be up any moment.

Next second he pulled out all his energy and said, ”Son, if ever I could change my past, it would have to be the day I left you and your mother! I won’t beg for forgiveness because I’m not worthy of, but any time in your life if you need something which no one else could give, I will not have a second thought giving it to you! I’ve always loved you and I’ll always pray to the Almighty for you not to become a person like me.!” The guard again signalled to him he got less than 5 minutes. And he realized he was still looking at his son without a word spoken. He was talking to himself in his mind. Finally, he chatted with his son asking about his school, favourite food, colour etc.  The alarm finally rang and the lawyer again whispered something to Ricky’s ear. ”Bye bye daddy!”, the son finally said and left.  He just had the happiest day of his life and with an experience never felt before, he went inside to spend his remaining 7 years of imprisonment.

Years later, Ricky, with his left hand over his heart, and the other hand caressing his daughter’s hair, asks, ”Do you know what your grandpa gave to me?”

Daughter: Daddy, is it chocolate?

Ricky makes a gentle smile, and looks at the picture of his dad hanging on the wall, and with his hand still on his heart and kisses his daughter’s forehead and then tells to himself, ”Your grandpa will be always in your daddy’s heart and someday, you’ll understand, baby..someday!” And then yet again, the flashback went, this time, to that day when he had his heart surgery!


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